Closure?

She called me today, 15 minutes we talked. I am so sorry for burning that special bridge between us, I won't be able to completely forgive myself for losing someone like her. She got an internship and will be leaving campus soon, and most probably, I won't be able to even meet her. Our last in person interaction will always be yesterday when I gave her the DMC silently, she didn't utter a word. I am proud of her, but that guilt will always be there with me, I want to leave this place please, this college, this campus, this will always remind me of her, the cafe, the hostels, the food. I want to leave this place too. I don't know how can one week be this terrible, she leaving, my debarment, the disappointing drives. I don't know what is happening and I just want a break from everything, I want everything to stop. Her voice did help in reducing some of it, I won't lie. But I just need to survive this week. I doubt this is the closure I needed.