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INNER MARGINSVOL III
Inner Margins
A Personal Archive
VOL. III · EDITION 08
CHANDIGARH / INDIA
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Rest day
Got a rest day finally, finally completed my sleep too....
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A Personal Archive
VOL. III · EDITION 08
CHANDIGARH / INDIA
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145 PIECES OF EVIDENCE THAT I WAS HERE.
Got a rest day finally, finally completed my sleep too....
I am just numb now, nothing interests me anymore, that's what losing your close ones does to you i guess....
Initially today’s post was supposed to be about my progress in moving on, but I’ll be honest, I have not. I still try to find her in all the random si...
Today we shifted flats because one of our older roommates left us and sharing a 2bhk flat for the remaining 3 of us would’ve been too much. So we now ...
Another boring monday to start a week, another lonely monday to start a week, jeez. August ends today btw, so there's that too....
Sunday's hangover struck today once again, but that pinch of loneliness still stung me. Tomorrow can be a new start tho, let's hope so....
A very boring day, didn't have anyone to interact with, even though everyone else has one. No friends, no friend circle, no-one to go to, to yap about...
Today I tried talking to her, she refuted my attempts at making meaningful conversations tho, is the bridge completely burned between us? I won't give...
That feeling is still there, that feeling of hollow, that feeling of loneliness, that feeling of dumb hope, that feeling of longlines. I might get a c...
I still miss you, your smile, your laughter, your hymning of a random beat of a song, I miss everything you stood for. I miss seeing you in my world, ...
Bad news, I guess I have still not moved on from her, even tho I thought I had. I want to so much, but she was so great. Hopefully I will tho, soon....
Today was CV MST, went decent enough but after giving the exam, I was drained, so very drained. Thankfully, we have 2 days off before our final 2 test...
MST started today, went well tho. ...
Exam prep going on, don't have anything much to say....
I'm just fed up now, too tired of everything going in my life with nobody by my side. Exams are coming up, I hope they are a welcoming distraction, I ...
I wasted today's day to be honest, still have couple of hrs to make that right tho. PS: loneliness returned again!...
Today I managed to get a good rest and also, managed to complete my pending tasks too!...
So much to do today, I am burnt out man...
Today was awful, don't wanna talk about it, and couple that with the stupid loneliness too. ...
Today was our consultand interview but ofcourse the wifi had to have some trouble the minute our interview started, I could hardly give it for about 5...
Today was boring, couple that with the recurring headache I have since yesterday, it was a day to forget....
Friend circle. I want to be part of a friend circle, an exclusive one, where I feel included. Don’t get me wrong, I’m technically part of some friend ...
Another dull friday, another dull day....
Today was meh...
Today I had a drive, and I'm just tired man, too tired to write anything else, nothing happened anyway except for the fact that I cleared the first ro...
Today we had a drive, but that isn't that important. I want to talk about maturity today, people often think I am younger than I look and trust me, it...
Dear H,I don't want to name you explicitly, but if you're reading this, you know I am talking about you, don't you? I hate you officially now, con...
Today was Book Lover's day, but well I don't have anyone anymore whom I can gift books anymore, so today too was uneventful, no gym too as today was s...
Nothing happened today too, it was a regular day, woke up late, water did come after 2 days so that was something, then went to gym in the evening.&nb...
Beautiful book, I was in a sort of slump before I picked this up, and boy, it was a great decision. It is a gorgeous book, revolves around a simple no...
Today was boring tbh, I got cold yesterday and so i was just resting throughout most of the day, today was also my third of gym, so yeah, trying to co...
I have accepted it, atleast I think so. Nothing else to say. Nothing significant happened anyway. I hope I have indeed accepted it and moved on. ...
Yes, I did get over it, I have moved on, but still sitting here in my room all alone at nearly midnight, I can't stop myself from crying, I still feel...
Got my closure today i think, let's see where the road takes us now. Finally ticked off that move on reminder too, so yaaaay?!Now, time to work on...
I lashed out at her today, many things happened, there were exchanges of some harsh words, why can't we fix this? There must be a way to fix this?...
Today was friendship day and it was painful to see all the posts/reels in my insta feed celebrating friendships while I couldn't even talk to my suppo...
August starts from today, let's hope it is an improvement over the past 2 months. I need the version of myself that I was before 18th May, I need that...
This month promised so much, but in about 2 hrs (i'm writing this earlier than my usual 23:11), this month will end and all I will be left will be 31 ...
I still miss her every day, every minute. That void is killing me, everything around me just gets blurred out amidst this gloominess, and it's terrify...
I am terrible at letting something go, i can't get over her, i can't get over that interview either now, i don't even know how i feel right now, it's ...
My mum gave me a reality check today. Maybe it was just sarcastic, maybe it was just humour but it still stinged when she said I don’t have any friend...
Today was my online interview with a company, technical interview for a full stack role. I thought it went decent, but slowly I'm getting more anxious...
Today was a sunday, and ofcourse i woke up late, quite late infact, 1PM in the afternoon. Nothing significant happened today as a result. ...
Today I begged her (again) to give me a second chance (again). I know I know, I am screwing up my self respect for this, but she's way bigger than tha...
After years of reading standalone novels, this was the first book I read which was part of a series (or trilogy) and jeez, it was worth it. Thriller g...
Today was also off so I did got the opportunity to complete sleep, nothing significant happened apart from some recurring thoughts that I don't want t...
I messsssed upppp my CR interview. Can’t believe I wasted my time and money for this. ...
Another boring day, nothing much happened to be honest, only 2 lectures were scheduled today, so yeah.Nothing, that is a great theme for today, em...
First day back to college and another boring day, unsurprising. Sat alone too.She came to class today, tried confronting her, aired me, so I just...
Who do you talk to when you have nobody? Who do you talk to when 2 of your best friends don't talk to you anymore? Who do you talk to when you were th...
Today was awful, AWFUL. Full of regrets too, I felt bad for cancelling on my uber ride twice too. And, since coming back to my flat, there's this empt...
Day 2 of my return trip. Will reach my flat hopefully before midnight tonight....
The worst part of every holiday, the back trip to college. Aghhhh...
Last day i get to play football and it went well i would say, but also the last day before i leave for college tomorrow, time is indeed relative, thes...
Today, I couldn't play the full 1 hr, I was deemed "retired hurt", I guess they could see the pain i was playing under, the cramps coupled with the he...
About yesterday, it took a heavy toil on me I guess. I got very bad cramps today, even sitting or bending was a huge pain for me. I did go again today...
Well, today I played football after so many months (years?), and it was great!! We played in the nearby turf for one hour and wow, it was tiring but i...
Ah, today was boring too, did ruin my sleep by waking up very early in the morning in the morning due to something and had trouble sleeping again, but...
Another dull day, another dull sunday. I did go to watch movies wuth my parents, it was a comedy film, not a nice one, but it did make us laugh so the...
I had a dream today, again, after so many days. Another dream girl, another stranger, haven't even met her. I don't even remember her face now, but sh...
Wow, this book started off as slow, really really slow (kinda like "all the light we cannot see"), but damn, it gripped me till the end...
I guess yesterday's entry was everything I needed, I got the closure I needed finally. I unsuspended my insta too today! Also, today's entry will mark...
Another insignificant day, i did have a dream yesterday but since I forgot to log it, I don't even remember it, it was a nice dream after all.Did ...
Well, the days just seem to run by swiftly. That always happens during the sem breaks anyways, time just flows away. Well, I cycled again today, much ...
Nothing significant happened today, so let's ignore that today even happened. ...
Today was alright, slept a lot, relaxed a lot, didn't remembered her, so it was a better day, also started working on a new exciting project, so even ...
Well, atleast this time it is a tad bit easier to move on than last time, I deleted the chats today and suspended my insta. Did help a lot tbh, also d...
Ah yes, today I faced the consequences of that proposal, yeah I screwed up (again!).Anyway, that friendship is screwed now, she explicitly said th...
Well, her response came back today and even tho I was expecting it, even though I had no hopes beforehand, even tho I knew she would say no, her respo...
Today I'm gonna do it finally, today is the last day of our domain camp, last throw of the dice. Finally took my own advise from my whatsapp pfp, bein...
1st July, new month, hopefully new me? Tomorrow I'm gonna perform a stunt that might be too risky, but I can't be a coward forever. It might very well...
Today was boring too, but it was better than yesterday. Obviously I couldn't completely erase that loneliness itna suddenly, but I didn't fell that em...
Well, I knew I had to read this when I came to know that this one was releasing this year! Last month only ig too. I had to because I kinda adore...
Emptiness is still there, doesn't goes away. Even today, during class, I felt lonely, my "favourite" person in the class too clearly gave signs that w...
I stumbled upon this book while I was confused which book to read, I couldn't complete Normal People and Eleonar Oliphant is Completely Fine (I intend...
That void came back today, that loneliness, it is more apparent the longer I'm free, so since today we got a day off due to our online classes, my ove...
A lot went on today, some bad, some good, but it's fine tho, atleast the end was alright.Class was much more bearable than yesterday, so there's t...
Today that emptiness returned, that loneliness, that hole, that void. Dunno, when it will go away for good, I just want it to go man, this is getting ...
Today was sh!t, I am just tired of people just texting or calling me when and only if they need me without asking about me, I couldn't even get my eve...
Vanshika of all people came in my dream today, just abhi. Evening nap. I don’t dream usually and certainly never during my evening nap.
Yesterday was her birthday, still didn't accept my call to wish her, tried using my friend's number (got blocked from there).Screw her man, no off...
I am writing this at 2AM because thoughts of her managed to come back, almost randomly, I deleted the chats, but man, I still remember our chats, her ...
A mixed bag of a day really, I can't even say if it was a good day or a bad one, the emptiness is still there tbh, hopefully that void gets filled qui...
Another boring day, nothing significant happened today, still felt sleepy throughout the day....
Today was awful, I'm just tired, too tired to describe, it was not that awful, but it certainly wasn't good either, I just wasted my time, had to wake...
Today we had our CUCAT, but that wasn't the most significant thing that happened with me today, I saw her today, in flesh and blood, I couldn't even h...
Another draining day, the heaviness is still there but today it transformed from just physical to emotional too, I finally succumbed and texted her ag...
Considering I rank Origins amongst my best books, this one was carrying a lot of hype, infact this was supposed to be my first read on my kobo, but an...
Today was pretty bad too, maybe better than yesterday, maybe not. Loneliness is creeping in too as if that wasn't enough too. Emptyness is creeping ba...
Confession time, the movie hype forced me to read this. I originally wished to watch the movie, which I usually don’t btw, but due to some issues...
A late review, since I did complete this book nearly a month ago, but better late than never ig. Well, I read this when I was not at my best,...
Well, today was the first day of college in my new hostel, and ofcourse I woke up late (couldn't sleep in the night for some reason, maybe overthinkin...
Well, yesterday was saturday. We shifted to our new flat and everything, and it was fine.I blocked her on friday, and deleted the chats yesterday,...
I miss her so much man, I wish I could use a time machine to remedy everything, I miss her smile, miss her messages, miss her voice notes, miss our me...
Yesterday was awful, I shouldn't be surprised really, the whole month has been awful. I lost my best friend, i cried for her 2 days ago while i was ou...
The friendship ended yesterday, it was inevitable, the signs were all there to be honest, she used to abruptly end my calls citing that she'll call la...
Another forgettable day, it was a saturday.Did got another reality check about my worth in people's life, but let's not shake that same bush again....
Just another mediocre and boring day where nothing significant happened to be hoenst...
Today was aptitude EST today, went well, better than I expected tbh. Point is loneliness is starting to creep back in, why can't most people not ...
Today was our SE EST, it went well, but I still believe it didn't go better than AI one, don't have anymore to say about today....
Today nothing significant happened, but i'm feeling more remorseful about losing my earbuds, I checked for replacements buds and it'll cost 2.6k, can'...
Today was AI EST, it went great, I doubt it could go any better, let's continue this momentum. ...
Today was prep day since our ESTs are from tomorrow, and it was a good day in general too. I like teaching people ig, cools my mood. Yesterday was awf...
Today was our soft skills GD, it went well, but everything else wasn't as cozy or jolly....
Today was awful too, I mean my AML lab EST went good, but AI went horrible (let's not talk about it). I did try to make ammends on my personal friends...
I'm not fine, don't why my heart feels heavy, so heavy it hurts. I'm not crying now, not yet, but I want to, I want to so much. I don't know what to c...
Today was Sunday, and nothing significant happened, nothing to say tbh, gonna be my shortest entry....
I missed the entry for tomorrow, missed just by a whisker, i just opened the site the minute the clock stuck midnight!Anyways, it doesn't matter becau...
Today was Book day, so I gifted 2 books to a special someone, with a letter. Mind you, the book had special highlighted sections and even my custom re...
Today was boring (again!), the apti class was alright (we did nothing), but I then skipped CC lab, and sat at the stairs and damn it was so weird. Ini...
Wow, what a book. Fredrik never disappoints, does he? This was his third book that I read after a Man called Ove and Anxious People, and boy was I not...
Today was my placement drive, and the first round was supposed to be GD (Group Discussion), and wow, it was a war out there. It was just a free brawl ...
Today was awful again (surprise surprise!), well i slept at 4AM yesterday, was building another project of mine and I was so lost in the process that ...
Yesterday was uneventful, it was a waste of time really. We had a seminar/session today, with me having my session at afternoon. Unfortunately, they d...
So it finally cracked, had a mental breakdown finally, guess those misery filled weeks finally caught me up. I had 2 placement drives, they went awful...
Yes, I broke my streak my forgetting to write yesterday, so this is about yesterday again since today was boring and insignificant. Well, I broke...
Well, today was kinda weird. I could skip my CC lab due to my high attendance, and if you couple this with the gaps we have on Friday and the prematur...
Well, today was boring and uneventful. Nothing significant happened today so I genuinely have nothing to say about today, even our teachers seem unint...
Well, I started this book 1 year ago but for some reason couldn't finish it. I forgot the book at my home during the sem break and hence forgot about ...
Yeah, I'm fixing this schedule first, so this 2nd entry for the day is really about today and not yesterday. Don't want to mess up the whole timeline....
Well, I have been logging the entries a day late for the last 2 days, so gotta fix that. This is actually for 6th (Monday), I'm writing this at midnig...
Well, today was reconciliation day ig? We did meet today, to sort things out, and for the most part it was alright ig. We did try to enjoy it, and for...
Well, everyone has a fatal flaw, right? Someone gave me a reality check I needed. You know what my fatal flaw is? I overdo everything, and it may seem...
The dreams haven't stopped yet, and yet they feel real every day as if they weren't dreams but hallucinations? I need to either find help for myself, ...
Today was our soft skills presentation and i fumbled, got stuck on one word really, well that's my life really, clinging on to the smaller flaws....
Well, today was surprisingly great. Classes went smooth, nothing disruptive occurred either. I bonded with a faculty of mine regarding various pop cul...
I missed yesterday's entry, my bad. We had holi yesterday and today, and wow, I had low expectations but damn it was awful. Yesterday started great, i...
FOMO was really getting me over the past few weeks, so I have decided on my plan. Monday to Friday, I'll do JS, DSA and Swift. Saturday & Sunday w...
Well, today was Sunday, but boy was it better than last week. It was a bit productive too, I got a haircut too and overall my mood wasn't gloomy eithe...
Today I had a mock interview, and it went good, went better than I expected actually. It was supposed to be technical but it was mainly regarding the ...
So about yesterday's mess that I made, today I tried my best to make up for it, I'm not gonna be naive and say that I completely redeemed myself but I...
I screwed up, blew up everything because of my insecurity, because of my god damn insecurity! Why I did what I did, even I don't know, sometimes being...
Today was awful, it was boring, it was tiring, it drained the whole energy outta me. It was the last thing I needed, I deattached myself from a specia...
Well, today was pretty uneventful too barring for a boring seminar that we had to attend. I wouldn't waste my words describe another insignificant day...
Thank you for making me feel like the most special person in the world. Thank you for making me feel wanted. Thank you for giving me attention. Thank ...
Monday, new week, but unfortunately it was a tiring start to a new week. I thought I had slept enough but my energy level during the whole day was dow...
Well, today was Sunday, so I finally got the opportunity to rest/sleep (finally!) but I guess I wasted today. I had so many things planned, go for a r...
Today was awful for all the bad reasons, our class was finally called to attend the fancy AI event but instead of letting us go anywhere, they forced ...
Well, today was nothing special, it just went by, one positive i guess is that nothing bad happened today and I did complete the Kite Runner finally (...
I’m used to reading books that make you cry, I have read many. This was something different tho, you could feel the agony, the screams, the tears, the...
Ofcourse I broke down today too, there's gotta be a week where something or someone forces me to, but guess I should be getting used to this now. How ...
Today was just a regular day, better than yesterday, that's for sure. We got our MST 1 papers today, the results were better than I had expected but s...
Paranoia, people often overuse that word, but I genuinely do get paranoid everytime when stakes matter. I fumbled today during my soft skills class fo...
What are dreams?Last Saturday, I had a dream that literally woke me up and forced me to write that down in the notes app before i went to sleep again....
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