Melancholy

Yesterday was awful, I shouldn't be surprised really, the whole month has been awful. I lost my best friend, i cried for her 2 days ago while i was outside with my friends in a cafe, thankfully nobody noticed i cried then, but they did notice my gloominess. Now, the icing on the cake was that my results was bad bad bad, 2 papers both below 50! Everything that could go wrong went wrong, couldn't check the papers properly due to the awful schedule, and to make matters worse, I couldn't even apply for reevaluation because of their stupid rule of only allowing rechecking during the same limited window, if I went for rechecking, i would miss my class and they would debar me, I was essentially trapped. 
If being lonely was not enough, I lost in one of the very few things I thought I was good at, academics, the students i taught got more than me, I am proud of them, I really am, but I feel even more embarrassed/ashamed of myself for scoring so low.