Suffocating

My mum gave me a reality check today. Maybe it was just sarcastic, maybe it was just humour but it still stinged when she said I don’t have any friends. I further supported her point by saying that I sit alone in class(she didn’t believe it tho,she thought i was just joking). I wish I was. Still have no update for the interview, my hopes are only falling from now on. I wish I could level my expectations to sub zero, but I can’t. I don’t want to get disappointed again, that internship is my one chance to escape this nightmare of a life I’m living in college right now, it’s suffocating, and I just want to live not survive every day.