Tears

I don't know how to handle it, but tears still seems to be flowing, and I'm helpless. I'm lonely. I'm sad. I don't even know what is one redeeming quality of mine. Google diagnosed me with clinic depression and I don't even know how to handle it, I'm too scared to take anti depressants even tho I can without my parent's consent since I am a legal adult. Critical day tomorrow, my whole mental health rests on it, I really pray that it is a better one, because I need it.